Dillan turned 3 this month and Raegan hit the 3 month mark.
I'm not sure what happened...age or new baby...but my sweet and cuddly little boy has turned into an emotional nightmare. He has tantrums and fits of sobbing over nothing. Literally, nothing.
I know his little emotional center is in overdrive trying to process new feelings and impulses, but oh my word is he a handful!!! Everyone says 2 is bad, well it's a walk in the freaking park compared to 3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Funny thing it that he's still so very polite while he's having a total meltdown. He'll be an angry sobbing mess and if you ask him if he wants a drink of water he'll sob "no (sniff sniff) thank (huff) you (sniff)" LOL
Sometimes it's impossible to keep a straight face with the things he says and does. He's adorable even when he's being bad as all get out!
On the flip side, Rae is like the bipolar baby from crazy town. I never know what to expect.
She sleeps great, down for the night by 11:30 and sleeps until at least 9 or 10 (sometimes waking earlier wanting her paci). The only problem is that she's super sweet until about 3pm. Then it's like a mental shift change. She's cranky and crying for seemingly no reason. Nothing makes her happy and she just wants to be held nonstop...and NOT in a carrier, in my arms (sigh).
I feel an overwhelming sense of mommy guilt these days since I feel like shes growing and changing so fast and I can't stop to enjoy it. All the while I don't feel like I'm giving enough of myself to Dillan and he's acting out to get attention. It's like pulling a rubber band in both directions, if done for too long it will eventually snap. I foresee a snap if I can't find some sort of balance soon. It really doesn't help that 4-5 days of the week I'm essentially a single mom. I have the utmost respect for the ladies who raise multiple children on their own. It's the hardest job I could ever imagine taking on.
If I weren't breastfeeding (WHOLE other post about how well this isn't going) I'd totally take up drinking!
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| Blowing out his candle |
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| New fav toy... Imaginext Fire station and fire truck |
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| Birthday boy |
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| Blue eyes! |
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| Diva in training |
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| I'm 3mos old! |
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